– The black period of ‘king’ William James Moore (2012-2015)

NOTE: William took great pride by appearing a man of ethic and integrity

to the world, -“There is nothing about me on the web“- he often said.

Instead, he told me: “Look what people say about you?

He was building up a scenario where he would have been able to leave safely,

after having ruined my reputation.

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I have nothing but love for this sick being.

This post is to warn his future victims

as I wish someone would have warn me.

It is to help the many people who have been severely harmed

by William during work or private life interactions.

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Psychological violence and abuses cannot be easily demonstrated or proof

and too many times they go unpunished by the law,

although they cause many victims and deep long-lasting wounds.

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This is the story of a man who can get inside your body,

your mind and your soul,

and just like a drug it takes all of you

and leave nothing for yourself.

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William is a Sociopath by definition.

He wrote me once he had PTSD.

No. He didn’t. 

His self-centered, capricious, abusive behaviour started way before he even joined the Air Force, although him blaming it on the deployments, can get him to draw some extra money on his disability check.

Many of his past victims can testify that.

PSYCHOLOGICAL VIOLENCE.

When he has gotten everything he leaves like you never existed.

As drugs do, you will go through a severe withdrawal symptom…

the dreadful feeling of death.

But it is only when the deadly poison leaves you body

 you realize that by leaving you he gave you back life.

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Most, like William do put you aside, while not allowing to go, till they have found their next victim.

CMSG William Moore

He knew very well he was hurting me, he was making my life impossible, I was the target of his anger. He repeatedly stubbed me on my back many times, and then, when the blood was too much, he shattered the door on me so he did not have to see it. People on the outside have no clue what he his is capable of  in his carefully hidden, and very private, secret world.

… This kind of people with their new love, soul mate..  are starting anew.

They block their past, their view to the blood they have spread all over.

And if you make the mistake to direct their attention to that horror,

to destroy their illusion of “true love’,

you are going to become the target of their madness.

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E_MAILS:… MOORE, WILLIAM J CMSgt USAF AETC 802 CONS/CEM <william.moore.8@us.af.mil> Attachments12/5/12 to me To my beautiful soul mate, You are the most amazing woman in the world. You make my heart sing, you warm my soul and you bring chills to my spine. Whether I have a good night sleep, or no sleep at all or even in pain, it brings me joy to wake up next to you, look into your mesmerizing eyes and feel your beautiful skin. I can’t stop thinking about you when we are apart. I am lost without you. I love you with every ounce of my being. You complete me.”

 

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He denied he ever loved me. He told me he did not even know what “The notebook” was; our favorite movie.

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MOORE, WILLIAM J CMSgt USAF AETC 802 CONS/CEM 8/22/12 “I trust you 100%… Thank you for sharing honey I really appreciate it. I won’t assume anything u… Why did it take us so long to find each other? “.-..”William  ask me to cancel my past, my friends, my work. “We are all that matters- he said – we are priority and the only one who count from now on. We are one. What is mine is yours and what is yours is mine. I cannot live without you because you are me and me you.” -He made sure HE was the only thing that did matter to me, he got my soul, my body and ll the rest. He made sure every second I was looking at him and only him. Than one day a terrible blow, somebody suddenly slapped me so hard on my face I almost passed out. I looked, it was him; William, my soul mate, my own self. “Why are you looking at me?,- he said” – Stop! you are annoying me!”  … Certe persone vogliono che guardi solo loro. Ti tolgono tutto e tutti e poi un giorno ti arriva una sberla cosi forte che ti tramortisce. E sono loro che ti dicono”Smettila di guardarmi, mi dai fastidio.!”

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He made sure HE was the only thing that did matter to me,
he got my soul, my body and all the rest.
He made sure every second I was looking at him and only him.
Than one day a terrible blow,
somebody suddenly slapped me so hard on my face I almost fainted.
I looked, it was him; William, my soul mate, my own self.
“Why are you looking at me?,- he shouted in anger – Stop looking at me! you are annoying me! Leave me alone.”
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E-mail: MOORE, WILLIAM J CMSgt USAF AETC 802 CONS/CEM 8/22/12 <william.moore.8@us.af.mil>

You are my paradise!

 

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“I was trying to solve a problem when I married you- he said cold-blooded, -I don’t love you.”-

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In the name of love, he asked me to give everything I had

included my son,

my cat, my best friends…..

I had to turn down 3 good job offers because he wanted me to be with him all the times, to be one with him, nothing else should have existed aside from him., yet, at the same time (behind my back) he told some of his friends/family I was suffocating him and I did not have a job.

 On mother day 2013 he took me out for sushi. He did not like or wanted my son, but I ask him if for the occasion he could come along.

He ordered the cheapest food and in a bar, after his second beer, he got up in the middle of the place

and shouted: “I DON’T LIKE YOUR FUCKING SON.”

That was 2013 William’s mother day present to me.

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William would punish me with anger and rejection every time I will pay attention to my son or my cat.(emotional blackmail)

He took pleasure in letting me know how much he would have loved to kick my cat (he call him varmint) out of the balcony.

He told me that if he was really a priority as I promise him to be, I would get rid of both my son and my cat.

They were the only 2 things left very dear to me.

 

 

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’He told me we should have been each other priority: “I do not care if my son dies, -he said-, but you, if anything happens to you I will go insane.” . A year later, after many abuses I did ask him; “How can you do these things to someone you love?” His answer was: “I do not love you. I cannot live without my son, but you? Yes, I can live very well without you!” He told me I was selfish because I was crying, and by crying I was making him feel bad.

Shortly after our divorce he ask me to go back to him as his girlfriend, as a sex partner. He offered to pay for all my expenses as I was a prostitute.

Interesting, because we were never sexually a good match, he is unable to make love, sex to him is a way to self-appreciation and gratification. Another opportunity to path himself on his back after the great show.

On the day our divorce became official:

E-MAIL: williammoore1717 <williammoore1717 9/12/14

 to me
Thank you for loving me.   I love you more than realize.”
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Discard: When the narcissistic sociopath has realized the relationship he's had with you has come to an end. He (or she) has used up every bit of good in you… they've taken your self-worth, your happiness, your peace, your confidence, your personal boundaries, your dignity, maybe even your support system… Even if you are the one who leaves first either by walking away or filing for divorce, you are still suffering from the emotional fallout of a toxic relationship as you now realize with painful clarity that it was all fake, a fraud, his (or her) love was not real… it was merely a show to gain narcissistic supply to feed their infantile and sick ego. The best news is eventually you can get to a healthier place… leaving is the first step. As time goes on and with therapy, self care and lots of support from friends and family… you can live the great life you imagined… experiencing real love, a life without tension, anxiety and eggshells… and feel physically better too. A narcissistic sociopath may discard you for what they believe to be a better choice but with that comes something even greater for you… your freedom. © gps-gracepowerstrength.blogspot.com ~ 2015

Discard:
When the narcissistic sociopath has realized the relationship he’s had with you has come to an end. He (or she) has used up every bit of good in you… they’ve taken your self-worth, your happiness, your peace, your confidence, your personal boundaries, your dignity, maybe even your support system…
Even if you are the one who leaves first either by walking away or filing for divorce, you are still suffering from the emotional fallout of a toxic relationship as you now realize with painful clarity that it was all fake, a fraud, his (or her) love was not real… it was merely a show to gain narcissistic supply to feed their infantile and sick ego.
The best news is eventually you can get to a healthier place… leaving is the first step. As time goes on and with therapy, self care and lots of support from friends and family… you can live the great life you imagined… experiencing real love, a life without tension, anxiety and eggshells… and feel physically better too. A narcissistic sociopath may discard you for what they believe to be a better choice but with that comes something even greater for you… your freedom.
© gps-gracepowerstrength.blogspot.com ~ 2015

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William did ask me to come back on September 2014.
I went to see him, but I couldn’t stay…
I knew by now he was dangerous to my life
and couldn’t be trusted.
The pain in my heart was too strong.
He expected me to forget about everything and play along till he got tired of me again.
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In my heart I knew it wasn’t me he wanted.
He was feeling alone and horny and I was his safest choice
But me or another would have been the same.
Few weeks later he found someone and he told me he was in love
he blocked my number. After he breaking up with her, on June 2015 he texted me: “I have unlocked your number.”
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I then had to block his e-mail. Some people would never stop torturing you.
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As soon as I fallen in Love with him, his psychotic, controlling behaviour started. William boiled me alive, just like a red lobster. I experience the deepest agony of a painful, endless death. And once done, he said he made a mistake, he did not care for lobster, he was now fancying a steak.

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I ended up in a mental clinic such it was my pain.
After a month from confessing his love for me
he was already in love with someone else.
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By than I was in deep depression since over a year…
When I left he told me he would come to me as he did love me…
he never did.
He did not even tell me he was already in love with someone else.
Me, I was in his trash again.
Once more, he denied he ever loved me.
He just wanted me out so he could be safe in love again
with his new soul mate.
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Some people should be forbitten to use the words love, integrity and truth.

Some people should be forbidden to use the words love, integrity and truth.

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When he met me in 2012, he changed his password with “new life 17”; the day we became a couple (3 days after we met). He could not live without me.
I wonder which date he uses now on his new passwords. What his new, new life is.
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In all this story he is just a sick average human
who is incapable of true love.
But me… I made the biggest mistake.
I trusted him and I closed my eyes to truth.
William is far worse than lying.
He lies to himself, so he has nothing to be sorry about.
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He told me few times: “Women love me because I treat them well, -he added: “Many women has suffered from me.”
His new love might last a bit longer, after all William has a reputation to defend,
but nevertheless, her life will be less painful than anyone of us.
His ex-wives’ and women he abused know what I’m talking about.
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Except Patty, the one who died,
may be the only one whose wounds have been finally healed
by the gift of death.
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If you have been wounded by this sick man, if your wounds have been as deep and severe as mine the pain will be with you several years.
Please do not be alone and share you experience with the people you love so they have a better chance to recognize a Sociopath when they run into one.
Below is a link to highlight the main characteristic of a Sociopath.
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… “William says he had done a lot for me. The truth is, he was self-motivated, he wanted to feel good about himself , to silence his sense of guilt. He denied me the very things that matter to me; loyalty, truth and care…. He knew he was hurting me yet, he choose to lie and ignoring me. Deception and betrayal. It was never a good time to talk. He left me many, many days in the dark.. “He called me selfish when I reminded of this pain, he thought is was evil of me to ruin his happiness. I was to be and remain in his past, where I belonged, down at the bottom of his forgotten trash and quietly disappear.

REFERENCE:

Signs of PSYCHOLOGICAL ABUSED of a Sociopath

Saturday, November 30, 2013 Is He A Sociopath? – 20 Signs The Sociopath You may be wondering if he’s a sociopath and what makes up one. Here is a list of 20 signs to help…. 1. You are walking on eggshells… you feel on edge around him and yet strangely enough you want to be his one and only. Yes, it’s sick. This is not normal. 2. He originally placed you on a pedestal and was in awe of you. Now, later, it’s like you are in this weird dance where he waffles between placing you on the pedestal and treating you like you are disposable. It creates confusion instead of peace. 3. He refers to you as his trophy wife and bases your value on how good you make him look. He expects affirmation he’s done well in life at his 20 year high school reunion based on your looks and you on his arm. When no one validates him, this is when you unknowingly enter the discarding stage by him. 4. In the beginning he wanted to seal the deal quickly and marry you speedy quick. He doesn’t want a long engagement, he gives ultimatums, sets the wedding date and if you waver…. he accuses you of being not committed. 5. You catch him in a lie. And another lie. And another. It’s pathological for him and he won’t stop. He accuses you of being a liar or a cheater. That’s called projection; him twisting what he’s doing onto you. 6. Nothing phases him. He drives like a maniac to intimidate you. Or you’re in the car with him and nearly get hit by another car. Anyone else would flinch, grip their hand rest, something. Not him. He’s cool as a cucumber and never feels fear, anxiety or worry. No, that’s not normal. 7. Appears needy but is actually controlling. Texts you incessantly. Initially you may see it as flattery, as lovely attention, but eventually down the road you will feel suffocated because he’s in fact controlling. 8. Sex addict. He craves stimulation and high risk. He may use you for his main source of supply but needs supply from others too. Likely a cheater. He will put you at risk for STD’S. Get tested. 9. Views women as inferior. His friend may likely be a narcissist, maybe even a sociopath…. has had sex with hundreds of women then discards them. He texts him nude photos of the women he’s slept with and when you discover it and confront him… he makes excuses. You are disgusted by him and for good reason. 10. Mocks you, stone-walls (gives you the silent treatment). You feel voiceless and exasperated. In a normal relationship you feel heard. 11. He is loved by those around him who know him superficially like his co-workers and employees. They believe you are the issue after you discover what he is because he has skillfully and cunningly painted himself to be this great, respectable, all around decent human being. He gives them shallow praise and they eat it up while he uses them in some way gaining supply. 12. He ignores you. When you ask him “Why are you treating me this way?’ you will be met by a blank stare. He walks away. Your feelings chronically feel unimportant. 13. He demands respect from you. He desires you to adore him and follow him. And yet as time goes on you are a big inconvenience to him. He voices complaint he has to provide for you “Why can’t you go get a job?” and “You expect me to do everything” when in reality you’ve been standing on your head like a three ring circus act doing everything except wiping his butt. You feel like a hundred years old and don’t recognize yourself in the mirror. 14. He expects that you better be perfect. You better work like a dog but look like a Victoria’s Secret model doing it. His expectations are sky high and you can never live up to them. Don’t even try, it will kill you trying. 15. The relationship doesn’t feel secure. In normal secure loving relationships there isn’t worry that one little spat is going to be the end of a couple… but with him, yes. You find yourself always being the one to give in, to compromise, to apologize… because there is this unspoken feeling that if you don’t he will toss you aside. Don’t accept this as a way to live. 16. Gas-lights you. Claims you said something you never said or alternatively tells you something in anger “Stop talking to me about God!” and then a few weeks later denies “I never said that”, ‘I don’t know what you’re talking about” ever saying it. In the beginning it will be he said/she said type scenarios. Later, it will be items (books, etc) moved in the house and he claiming you did it when you didn’t. Yes, you begin to question yourself and wonder if you’re going crazy. That’s his plan. Get yourself a plan… walk away from him and his bag of crazy. 17. Comments on your looks and other women’s. Constantly critiques how you could improve your hair, your outfit, etc. Who cares what he thinks? Why put value in it? 18. His idols are status, image and money. He has to have the big house, keep up with the neighbors and drive the expensive car. Post divorce he buys himself a second vehicle and takes his newest sex supply to New York, the trip he always promised you. He gains new supply from her and materialism. Take your own trip to New York. Why ruin it with a case of crazy? 19. He uses the children as pawns when and after you divorce. He uses them to punish you, to turn one or all of them against you. Because who exactly do you think you are to leave him after discovering he cheated? He does the discarding, no one else. 20. You don’t recognize him as the same person you first met. Because that person never really existed. That was a facade, a trick, a phony. He could only wear the mask for so long before it crumbled off. Now you know what he is. Run. And don’t look back. © gps-gracepowerstrength.blogspot.com ~ 2013

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2 thoughts on “– The black period of ‘king’ William James Moore (2012-2015)

  1. Thank you. I served under his rank and his CC and his people under him made the last two years on my military service the worst! I actually dont want my children to pursue a military career and meet anybody like him or his group

    • Thank you for posting your experience. My wounds still open after all those years, there are scars which will never heal… we only hope our experiences can be of help to others, a warning, although sociopaths are great cons in their own way and carefully select and “abduct” their victims with charm and fine deception.
      My best wishes to you.

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